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My Immortal.Your Lyrics
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
What Evanescence song are you?
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You are Scorned Lover Abby!
Which Abby Are You? (ER)
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Interesting... |
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Sydney runs around doing last minute cleaning and getting ready for the party she's having just because. She cleans the last bit of garbage left and waits for the doorbell to ring. |
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you are iced tea....you're kind of distant and you
value being alone. You like being needed, but
you can deal with being rejected. You're
charming and you adapt easily to any situation.
(with pics) what tea are you?
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Umm...Really? Do I really seem distant?
Mar. 17th, 2004 @ 04:13 pm
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Are you sure you are a geek? You sound
suspiciously well adjusted.
how seriously geeky are you?
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Anyway... Aww...Mitchell's so cute. But Marshall on barely any sleep and on a lot of coffee is worse than usual. But I bet Carrie's happy she's not pregnant anymore, I never really had a chance to stop by and see her before I left.
Mar. 10th, 2004 @ 07:44 pm
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That's easy. It's the one thing I know that can NEVER happen. Having a normal life. There's times when I'll sit at my desk, just blankly staring at this one picture I have of when I was five. Me, Mom, and Dad. Just . . . Sitting there. We all looked so happy. The mom "died", Dad got distant, I grew up and got recruited. I don't think I've ever seen a picture of the three of us other than that on, come to think of it. A few of me and Mom, me and Dad, and a few of Dad and Mom. Why is it that life sucks so much for some people and for some others it's perfect from the day their born to the day they die?
( Muns Note )
Feb. 29th, 2004 @ 03:38 pm
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This time from </em></a></a>![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) nigel_t
1. What is the thing you like and dislike the most about where you work? The thing I like most about where I work is that I feel safe there. On the other hand...The think I like least is that I have constant reminder of Vaughn.
2. What is your favorite song/album of all time? I don't really have one...but I do love Michelle Branch...
3. If you could be any animal at all...what would you be and why? Same answer as last time. Tiger. Strong.
4. What is one thing very few people know about you/your life? That while it may not seem it I get hurt easily and I'm not really as emotionaly strong as I come off.
5. If you were stranded on a deserted island and you could only take 3 things, what would you take and why? Totally corny answer but..My mom, Dad, and Will. Three of the things that have kept me going. (If I could take a fourth it'd be Sark, Everyone needs someone to fight with from time to time)
Want 5? Just ask.
Feb. 9th, 2004 @ 03:43 pm
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1) What do you think is your greatest achievement?
Not killing Sloane when I had the chance..
2) If you could be any animal, what kind would you be, and why?
Tiger, They're so strong and prideful.
3) What book has influenced you the most?
The CIA handbook? I'm not sure...I haven't had a lot of time to read in the past few years.
4) Describe your perfect day.
Sunny skies, a light breeze.
5) Who is your hero, and why?
Either Weiss or Will. They've both nearly died and have had so many things happen to them but it hasn't changed them
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Want 5? Ask and ye shall recieve.
Feb. 9th, 2004 @ 01:30 pm
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5 questions from hoyt_woodrow
1.You're in a three way Mexican stand off. Who would be first to go Mom or Dad?
Mom. (No offence..)
2. If your career path had not been predetermined by birth, what would you be doing now?
No idea whatsoever.
3. What are your career goals for the next five years?
My biggest one is Staying Alive long enough to have goals.
4. If you could pick a theme song to represent your life what would it be?
Independant Woman
5. <strike>Pleather or latex?</strike> What is in your refrigerator at this very moment?
A lot of take-out cartons. <strike>WOULD YOU STOP?? I DON'T GET A CHOICE!!</strike>
If you wanna be asked...Just aske me for a set..
Feb. 9th, 2004 @ 11:58 am
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That's easy. I could see why people would say someone like Shakespeare or Einstin... But on this I have to go with Rambaldi. I'd ask him what the hell his problem was, why he could predict the future (If he knew why) And Why The Hell I'm The Woman In The Prophecy. I mean...What the HELL did I do to piss him off? He died half a century ago! And then there's the basics: How was he so advanced for his time, Why did he hid everything the way he did. And then I'd procede to physically drag him to the CIA and hope they introgate him and foce him to tell the hiding places of all the things he'd hidden, what their purpose was, and WHY he hid them.
Sydney Bristow
Alias.
Feb. 6th, 2004 @ 07:31 pm
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This is an interview I got from Jordan's (jordansmuse </o:p>
1) If you could do one mission you've had over, what would it be and why?
I would pick…the mission in Paldiki. The reason being that I was stuck between a rock and a hard place a few times. The first being either leave and not get caught, but leave the antidote behind and let Vaughn die. Then after that it was either let my suit decay and my skin burn away or join Sark and help him to kill Sloane. I still feel like I made the right decision but…At the time I didn’t know that Sark only wanted to use me as a pawn to get Sloane to agree to join forces. I really thought he was going to die and I still went along with it.
2) Would you change anything about your life as it is now? If so, what would that be?
That’s the easiest thing I think I’ve ever been asked in my life. Yeah I would sure as hell change something. Those two years I was missing. The fight that led up to them. I would change the past so that I hadn’t passed out immediately after the fight. I could have stopped them from taking me. But as I was uncouncious at the time…It didn’t really work.
3) If you knew that what's happened to you as a spy would happen, would you still have done it?
You bet I would have. Everything that’s happened in my life has made me into the person I am and has made me stronger. Plus if I hadn’t been recruited I wouldn’t have met the people I know now and I would never have found out that my mom didn’t really die and that she was really a part of the KGB.
4) You knew an innocent person was about to be executed for something a family member did. Do you allow that person to be executed or do you come forward, even if anonymously? Why?
I don’t know…it depends on the circumstances.
5) If you could choose any place to live for the rest of your life, where would that be and why?</o:p>
Right where I am now. LA. I have everyone I care about here near me and that’s all I need. If you want to, you can...
1 - Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 - I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 - You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 - You'll include this explanation.
5 - You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.
Feb. 6th, 2004 @ 06:43 pm
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The name of Sydney creates a very versatile and creative nature. You are quick-minded and have the freedom of expression to mix easily with people. Because your feelings and desires are so changeable, you are never satisfied with conditions as they are. You have many ideas, plans, and ambitions, but too often they are for an easy way out of a difficulty or an easy way of making money. You seek change in order to have the opportunity for travel, new experiences, and new friends and associates. You find it difficult to systematize your efforts and to fulfil your obligations and plans as you are not inclined to apply yourself consistently to a job to reach your goals. Although you appear positive, you inwardly lack self-confidence and will-power.
I dunno...What do you think...
Feb. 5th, 2004 @ 12:26 pm
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I don't know. My 'costumes' come to mind though. I love the chance to be someone else, even for a little while. (Unless it almost gets me killed. That just bothers me). But, being someone else, having a different past, a different present, a different future...It almost makes the never being at home and the almost getting killed worth it. And while I was writing this I thought of another one. Shoes. Plain and simple, Shoes! And then there's always the plots to kill Lauren...Which I will NEVER act on! And a few years ago it was plots to kill Sloane... *Wonders if she likes killing too much* No. I don't. I hate to do it even when I need to to save my own life.
Sydney Bristow
Alias
Jan. 30th, 2004 @ 05:49 pm
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What should I name her?
Jan. 26th, 2004 @ 09:00 pm
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Home now. been for a while. V bored.
1.What is your name? Sydney
2.What do u wish your name was? My current one? Sydney
3.Nicknames? Syd, Bristow.
4.If you were a super hero who would u be? Catwoman?
5.If you were a porn star what would your name be? (you use your first pet's name as your first name and your street as your last)
6.How old are you? 32
7.How old have you ever been mistaken for? 18
8.Where do you live? LA.
9.What color is your hair? At the moment it's bright blue. I dyed it for a mission and can't get it out.
10.What do u like most about your self (image)? My nose
11.Would you like to change? Into what?
USELESS FACTS about you:
11.What is your favorite color? Pink.
12.Which are your favorite pants? My old ones.
13.What is your favorite band? Any rock band.
14.What color are your eyes? brown.
15.If you could only pick one cd to listen to for the rest of your life, which would it be? Michelle Branch: Spirit Room.
16.If you could only pick one movie to watch for the rest of your life, which would it be? Dirty Dancing. *Grins*
17.Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No.
18.Where is the farthest you've traveled? All around the world.
19.Do you have any body piercings? yes.
20.If you could be anyone for one day who would it be? Lauren Reed. (Just to see if my assumptions that she's evil are right)
21.Can you speak another language? Many.
22.Where is your dream vacation destination? Italy.
23.Did you ever want your parents to buy you a horse? What kid doesnt?
24.Do you have lucky underwear? Yes. *blushes*
25.What is the last concert you went to? God, it’s been years. Literally.
26.Last movie you watched? Johnny English.
27.What is the last thing you drank? Water.
28.Can you do the splits? Of course! Wanna see? *Eyes widen* DiDn'T mEaN tHaT!
29.If you had to forever only be payed for jobs in a certain candy, which candy would you pick? Candy Hearts
30.If you could steal anything from one of your friends and get away with it, what would it be? I don't know.
31.What song is stuck in your head right now? Yesterday -- Hilary Duff.
32.If you found 100 dollars what would u spend it on? New clothes.
33.Who is the coolest person in the world? Hmmm...Well, My mom's pretty cool...So is my dad.
34.Who would you really like to see get their ass kicked? Vaughn.
35.What is your favorite sport? Running.
36.How do you feel right now? Bored.
37.What is your favorite cartoon? Simpsons.
38.Do you like the mall? I do. I miss the mall.
39.Best place to shop? LA.
40.Have you ever milked a cow? No. I can't say that I have.
41.Which is better: the city or the country? The city.
42.What are you a sucker for? Powerful men
43.What is your favorite kind of pizza? Don't know that I have one.
44.What do you do when you are bored? Go online, paint my nails, go shopping. work.
45.How long do you think you would be able to stay on Survivor? The whole time
46.Favorite Sesame street character? Big Bird.
47.Guilty Pleasure? Chocolate.
48.What kind of shoes do you want to buy? Any that can inflict damage on others.
49.Can you drive? Of course.
50.Ever wet the bed? Uh, no.
51.When was the last time you puked? Not that long ago.
52.What is your favorite music video? I don’t have one.
53.Do you wear fake nails? Sometimes.
54.Do you have a cell phone? I do.
55.Can I have your number? no.
56.What can't you leave your house without? My gun.
57.Life just wouldn't be the same without ______. People who piss me off.
58.Who knows all your secrets? me..
59.What do you want for x-mas? *Looks away* Nothing
60.Have you been naughty or nice? *Sultry smile* Depends on your definitian of naughty
__ OR __ ??
61. Night or day? Night.
62. Valentine's day or Halloween? Halloween
63. Apple or Banana? Apple
64. Long hair or short hair? Long.
65. Summer or winter? Winter.
66. Movies or music? Movies.
67. Deaf or Dumb? Um. . . deaf.
68. Christina or Britney? "Makes me that much stronger, thanks for making me a ... fighter"
69. Spring or Fall? Fall.
70. Canada or U.S.? U.S.
71. Black or Blue? Blue
72. Here or There? Here.
73. Left or Right? Right...
74. Wrong or right? Wrong
75. Lost or Found? Found.
FILL IN THE BLANKS…
76. I wish I was a ____________. Oscar meyer weiner? no? Then I wish I was a... *Shrug* I dunno
77. I could eat a million _____________. Godiva chocolates.
78. _____ is a bitch. *Sing song* Lauren
79. ________ smells funny! *Raises eyebrow*
80. I hate it when ________. I fail on missions.
81. My family is _______. Overly dysfunctional?
82. I like _______. Nothing.
83. ________ will you marry me? James Marsters
84. All I need is _______ and I would be truly happy! A Time Machine!!
85. I don't understand why _____ and ______ can't get along! Mom and Dad... Usually
86. We all live in a ________. City.
87. I could listen to ______ forever. Marshall.....Wait! I already do.
88. The one thing I can't live without is_________. makeup?
89. ______ hate(s) me! Lauren
90. My ______ hurts! Head
THE LAST TEN (what does this remind you of?) :
91. Stars: Hollywood.
92. Truck: Farmer.
93. Jungle: Plane Crash.
94. Swan: boat.
95. Purple: Haze.
96. 2$: *Raise eyebrow*.
97. Hat: top.
98. Laugh: who.
99. Dew: Dawn.
*Reads over answers* Alright...No idea where the slut is coming from...I think it's been WAY too long...
((OOC: Thanks for the Avatar Jordan! I love it! *Kiss*))
Jan. 25th, 2004 @ 09:31 pm
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Well, I'm at work at the moment and probably shouldn't be here. That's alright though, it's not like I have anything better to do. I've been pulled off active duty at the 'insistance' of one of my 'superiors'. I finished all the paperwork I had to do hours ago and've been sitting around litterally twiddiling my thumbs.
( The Truth )
But anyway, I was checking my email and I found one containing a questionaire and I figured I may as well do it to pass the time.
1.What time is it? 4:07 pm
2. Name as it appears on your Birth Certificate: Sydney A. Bristow
3. Any nicknames? Syd, Bristow
4. Parent's names? Jack Bristow and Laura Bristow AKA Irina Derevko
5. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? 2, The number ones
6. Date that you regularly blow them out? Rather not say...
7. Pets? Nope
8. Favourite animal? Dog
9. Tattoo? Yes
10. Any piercing:One in each ear
11. How much do you love your job or jobs? I used to...But now I just wish I could get away
12. Birthplace? LosAngeles
13. Favourite vacation spot? Beach
14. Ever been to Africa? Yes
15. Stolen any traffic signs? nope
16. Ever been in a car accident? Yes
17. What type of car do you drive? Uhh...
18. Coffee? anything that'll keep me awake
19. Salad Dressing? Doesn't matter
20. Favourite Number? 17
21. Favourite movie: I don't know
22. Favourite colour: Pink
23. Favourite Holiday? Christmas
24. Favourite Food: Don't know
25. Favourite day of the week? Don't have one, but any days where I'm off
26. Favourite song? Don't know
27. Favourite TV Show? I don't really watch that much TV
28. Toothpaste? crest
29. Most recently read book? The fifth Harry Potter
30. Perfume? Calvin Klein
31. Favourite smell? Cookies baking
32. Favourite thing to do to relax?Nice long soak in the tub after going for a run
33. Favourite Fast Food place? *Shrug*
34. When was your last hospital stay? Hmmm...
35. How many times did you fail your driver's? None
36. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? With the way I live? Probably dead.
37. What do you do when you are bored? These annoying questionaires and quizzes
38. Furthermost place you sent this message? Who knows?
41. What time is it now? 4:15 pm
Great! I was on my way back from doing something and guess what I got to see? Vaughn and Lauren using "the flirting corner" for more than flirting! *Sighs and shakes head* Anyway...I should go. I'm being summoned.
Jan. 25th, 2004 @ 04:04 pm
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Ehwaz - Abrupt changes, moving into new home and environment, travel, swift change in situation.
Uruz - Used to create change, healing, vitality, strength, to boost energy of magickal work.
Othel - Material possessions and protection of those possessions, inheritance (can be genetic traits inherited from elders).